| Oh Sherbert What Is Wrong With Me |
[Nov. 9th, 2005|08:42 pm] |
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| |  Sighing Is What I Do Best | ] |
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| | Possibly A Bat Squeaking In My Wall | ] |
So I'm sitting here right, it's a quarter to nine. I'm sitting here, holding my breath so I don't start crying. I don't cry Sherbert, that's just not for me. Crying doesn't solve anything, or make you feel better, it just makes you feel exhausted and hopeless. But for some reason, today I feel like a big gooshy mess of a water balloon full of tears, that's dangerously close to a pin. But the thing is, I'm afraid if I start, if I let myself feel for one second and I let myself cry, I won't stop. I think I wouldn't stop for days. And I don't know about you but to me a Mexican who everyone thinks is Asian whose eyes swell shut if they cry for two minutes wouldn't look very cute if she cried for three days. So if you don't hear from me, I'm probably in my bath tub coaxing the tears down back to my toes where they belong. |
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| BORING |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|12:35 am] |
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| |  school tomorrow | ] |
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| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Name: Maya Pilar Isaguirre
Birthday: April 6th 1990
Birthplace: Flint Town
Current Location: Flint Town
Eye Color: dark dark brown almost black
Hair Color: a little lighter than my eyes
Height: I say 5'1 but the doctor says 4'11
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: 50% Mexican then I'm a little bit Irish German Scottish pretty much anything you can think of
The Shoes You Wore Today: slippers of course
Your Weakness: I'm really insecure about my appearance
Your Fears: water, throwing up, falling in love, trusting people, and the dark
Your Perfect Pizza: cheese just lots of cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: I don't have goals
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: I don't know I don't talk on AIM much anymore I just keep it on
Thoughts First Waking Up: why do I still not own a gun
Your Best Physical Feature: my ankles they're the only skinny thing about me
Your Bedtime: it would be 9 in the morning if I didn't have to go to school but ehh I guess around 1 or 2
Your Most Missed Memory: being home schooled in kindergarten and sitting in my under wear watching X-Man all day
Pepsi or Coke: Coke, Pepsi is just watered down or flat coke
McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds I guess
Single or Group Dates: I've never really been on an official date
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: I don't know the difference
Chocolate or Vanilla: depends Vanilla ice cream chocolate everything else
Cappuccino or Coffee: both
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: yes
Do you Sing: constantly
Do you Shower Daily: usually if I don't it's because I took one before I went to sleep
Have you Been in Love: I don't think so
Do you want to go to College: I want to live at college but not attend classes
Do you want to get Married: no that's the one goal I have in life, to NOT get married
Do you believe in yourself: not really sometimes maybe
Do you get Motion Sickness: I don't think so
Do you think you are Attractive: hmm sometimes like every three months
Are you a Health Freak: far from it
Do you get along with your Parents: 95% of the time I don't with my Mammy, I hate BRTB, and I don't talk to my Dad
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes I like to watch them, they're really beautiful but sometimes they scare me
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: I don't remember but I think no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: hmm I don't think I've ever really stolen anything
Ever been Drunk: no but I drank a Smirnoff or whatever they're called once and got tipsy
Ever been called a Tease: I think so
Ever been Beaten up: just by my siblings
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: sleeping
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: happy
What country would you most like to Visit: I'd like to live in New Zealand visit hmm most of Europe
In a Boy/Girl..
Favorite Eye Color: Blue or Green = )
Favorite Hair Color: I don't care
Short or Long Hair: that depends on the person but normally long so I can play with it
Height: I don't care just not shorter than me
Weight: just nothing resembling a whale
Best Clothing Style: I don't care
Number of Drugs I have taken: nothing that wasn't prescribed
Number of CDs I own: who fuckin knows
Number of Piercings: two in my ears one in my bully
Number of Tattoos: zero
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Cameron Aulph and one time I called a random number when I was like 6 and said a bunch of swear words on the answering machine and they called back, but I didn't get in trouble |
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| It's Been A While |
[Oct. 17th, 2005|12:01 am] |
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| |  Ehh You Know | ] |
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| | Techno Shit They Play In The Background Of Alias | ] |
So Sorry Sherbert,
It's been so long. I can't really remember what I've been doing lately, I just know for the first time, in over half a decade I'm beginning to really think I'm happy, naturally happy. By naturally I mean this happiness hasn't been inflicted on me by the use of prescription drugs. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't happier on them, but just the fact that I am at all is enough for me. I'm just going to give you a pretty basic low down of some of the categories in my life.
Family :
I really miss Adam and Posey. I feel like I'm never going to see Adam again, for those of you who don't know he's my oldest brother and he lives in North Carolina. And for some reason I think Posey's angry with me, chances are I'm right. Posey is my oldest blood sister, she lives in Lansing, and she pretty much raised me and has had the biggest impact on my life so far. She's the one person in my family who's ever shown that she truly cares about me (my mother never misses the chance to remind me that very few people in my family give a rats ass about me =) ), and for the last year I've gotten the feeling that she thinks I've failed her. Then there's piece of shit Eli. He broke up with his girlfriend because he's mentally retarded, the doctors have just failed to diagnose this. He broke up with her on her 20th birthday cause he's a really nice, considerate guy. Monday I actually did get to express to him for the first time the way I feel about him. Here's a little sample of that-
Maya Pilar (12:02:40 AM): heard you did Crystal Rodemski... nice job being nasty
Maya Pilar (12:02:41 AM): later
cottingyn (12:02:45 AM): i didnt
Auto response from Maya Pilar (12:02:45 AM):
... and as I sit here and pray that at some point in your life you'll have a complete 360 spin on your personality, I already know it will never happen. I already know, as a 15 year old in high school, that you just lost the best thing that you'll ever come across in your entire life. You just lost the person that would have helped that spin, and would have eventually changed you into something someday I could consider a decent human being. Even with the best thing that's ever going to happen to you, a miracle, not just in my eyes, but in the eyes of the Lord, you would only manage to be decent. So here I am praying that some day you'll change, when everyone already knows the only hope of that happening just walked out of your life.
cottingyn (12:02:50 AM): people thought i did
cottingyn (12:03:09 AM): but thats what you get at good ol khs
cottingyn (12:03:11 AM): gotta love it
Maya Pilar (12:03:51 AM): to be completely honest with you bro I'd believe the devils word over yours
cottingyn (12:05:51 AM): i was a lil kid compared to where i am now after a month and a half
cottingyn (12:06:07 AM): its not even like that anymore
Maya Pilar (12:06:11 AM): that's cool but that doesn't change our relationship
cottingyn (12:06:18 AM): im not sayin it does
Maya Pilar (12:06:31 AM): it doesn't matter if it's like that "anymore" Eli it's never going to be any different with you and me
cottingyn (12:07:34 AM): maya you dont even know me
Maya Pilar (12:07:45 AM): and nothing has ever made me want to
cottingyn (12:07:50 AM): okay
Maya Pilar (12:08:00 AM): at least anything you've ever said or done to me
cottingyn (12:08:05 AM): okay
Maya Pilar (12:08:57 AM): I don't care if MSU has been a "life changing" experience you can still deal with the fact that you fucked up our relationship to the point where it was too far to get back three years ago
cottingyn (12:09:09 AM): okay
Maya Pilar (12:10:42 AM): I've needed to say a lot of these things to you years ago but I just never could find the words but I hope you know that I pray every day that I'll some day find something in my heart to make me not hate you with every ounce of energy I have in my body
cottingyn (12:10:59 AM): okay
Maya Pilar (12:11:05 AM): you've always been God in the eyes of our family but that doesn't mean you're above the Lord
cottingyn (12:11:22 AM): okay
Maya Pilar (12:12:58 AM): so just do me a favor and quit trying to believe that things are going to change because for me you'll always be the one person who managed to make me wish I was dead for over 5 years of my life and I hope one day you realize you should be sorry that in some cases your actions and words really do have consequences
cottingyn (12:15:21 AM): cuz your a saint
Maya Pilar (12:15:37 AM): the only things I ever said to you were how I still feel today
Maya Pilar (12:18:24 AM): I never said I was a saint all I'm saying is don't expect to ever have any type of relationship with me because I could almost guarantee you I wouldn't shed a tear if I never saw you again and not because of anything I ever said or did to you all I ever wanted to be to you was human and you always managed to make it clear I would never be anything even close to that in your eyes
cottingyn (12:18:49 AM): oh okay maya
cottingyn (12:18:53 AM): grow up
cottingyn (12:18:54 AM): period
cottingyn (12:18:57 AM): until then
cottingyn (12:18:59 AM): dont talk to me
cottingyn (12:19:05 AM): you need to act like your not in high school
Maya Pilar (12:19:10 AM): why I am
cottingyn (12:19:18 AM): i know but thats a joke
cottingyn (12:19:21 AM): just grow up
cottingyn (12:19:28 AM): until then i dont need a relationship with you
cottingyn (12:19:34 AM): thanks
Maya Pilar (12:19:36 AM): I never will need one with you
cottingyn (12:19:39 AM): okay
cottingyn (12:19:47 AM): later
cottingyn is away at 12:20:08 AM.
Maya Pilar (12:20:10 AM): I'm glad my feelings still have no affect on you what so ever
Auto response from cottingyn (12:20:11 AM): oh how i dont miss high school and all the lil girls that came with it.
I love him so much Sherbert, he is most definitely the coolest person alive. Anyway, next subject. Uhh lets see here, all though I never thought it'd be possible, it seems sense Eli left my father and I have actually decreased the tiny bit of a relationship we have to a new sickeningly low size, oh well. Big Red is as psycho as she's ever been, and Mumma's growing more aggravating by the day, but hey Ellie's still the best puppy ever.
Friends:
I love umm, specially Randy every other day. Sarah and I talk more often, I hung out with Thorton on Friday and we had a nice talk. Chloe and I are unusually close, as well as Jay and I. I miss Lani like a mother fucker. I think about Trishia all the time and wonder how she's doing, normally when we'd hang out after school I've been baby sitting and now that baby sitting is ending works ironically scheduling me for more, and she's going to be starting Volleyball, which as I know from last year decreases the amount of time we can see each other too about zero. Chelsea and I are hopefully going to be back on track. I miss Billy. Brent and I are the closest we've ever been. Taylor and I are doing well, but she's always up in Brent's grill now, which is a good thing. Melisa and I are okay but I feel like we're drifting. Kelsey Sheldon and I are closer now, and I must say I'm glad she doesn't hate me like she did last year. (I've got a story about her. It was her birthday on Monday and she had a party on Saturday I'd been planning for for weeks, not even considering the fact that I work on Saturdays, stupid idiot me. So anyway I woke up on Saturday and went over to Randy's got ready and left there at 11:30 to get to Kelsey's by 12. We stopped picked her up a card and I got some Micky D's and drove around until about 12:45 looking for her house... yeah 12:45. We finally decide to stop at Randy's aunt's house to use her phone. So I call Melisa for the 900th time that day and I still don't get a hold of her, so I try my dad cause he took me to Kelsey's house a year ago and I thought maybe by some weird stroke of luck he'd remember how to get there, but he was working... yeah who works on Saturday's. Then Randy asks his cousin who oddly enough knew. So I get there to find that Randy's mom left some pretty sweet not to mention vulgar messages on Melisa's voice mail, possibly Kelsey's too, about wanting her fucking car back, and not knowing where the hell Randy and I had gone off too. No, I'm not making this up. So they're all pissed at me, because they think I was an hour late because I was just at Randy's, they didn't know that the ONE FLIPPIN street we didn't go down in the WHOLE FLIPPIN neighborhood was the right street, as I arrive while they are all about to pull out of the drive way, without the dress I promised Kelsey I'd bring with a card that I forgot to put money in and pissed off look of frustration. So we leave and it's 1 o clock we get to the apple orchard carnival thing at 1:30 and I had to leave in an hour. Some how I managed to have a great time though and I've decided I'm going to go to that orchard at least once a year now.) And I know I'm forgetting everyone but I just realized it's 12:34 and I need to shorten this up.
School:
What do you fucking expect it's fucking school we're talking about here, it blows.
Work:
Surprisingly well, I like it, and Antonio's food. There's more drama at work than there is in all other parts of my life combined. And my baby-sitting job is ending this week.
Dance:
It started last week, and I'm still having second thoughts on whether or not I really want to do this for the 8th year in a row. Oh one girl, Sarah, in my class got moved up, which is a good thing, no one liked her in the entire class. She's a bitch and she got a really warm welcome in to her new class immediately when Julia came up to me promptly saying right in front of Sarah as I left class, "Thanks for sticking me with this slut, I hate her."
Life Over All:
I imagine this is the best it's ever going to be and I'm not sure if I should laugh or cry.
So Sherbert, that, is that.
Oh I had a really weird thought the other day. I, who have vowed never to carry a child, never to marry for some reason thought that God created me for the sole purpose of having a baby. It just kind of hit me like, wow you're suppose to have kids. I don't really know how to explain it but it was weird. Like I just knew. It happened when someone was rubbing my belly and I like had a flash of me when I was older, and this same person was rubbing my bully, only it was a pregnancy bully. FUCKIN WEIRD SHIT RIGHT THERE!
Anywayyyy I'm going to bed it's almost one and I have gay escuela to attend tomorrow. |
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| Boooooorrrrrrinnnnnnnng |
[Sep. 5th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
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| |  school tomorrow | ] |
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| | just the tv humming | ] |
So Sherbert,
I haven't updated in a while and I have a lot to say. Too bad I don't have the energy to type it all up though, so you'll just get an over view. Pretty much life sucks as usual.
Love,
Maya |
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| I'm SOOOO Tired School F*ckin Blows |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|04:35 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | rat-a-tat of my fingers on the keys | ] |
Dear Sherbert,
Sorry for not writing. Here's the scoop. School started and I like my classes so far. I'm pretty sure my English, History, Spanish, and Algebra 2 classes really should just be called Homework For Nine Hours A Night R Us. Anywho I have a good lunch though. And I'm in love. We got our football t-shirts for tomorrow and they're adorable. I got four hours of sleep last night and I've been cleaning since I got home. Some people from like 45 minutes away are coming to look at our house tonight to see if they want to buy it. I really hope they do. If we're really going to move from The Brick I figure the sooner the better. Yesterday was like the worst day of my life. I basically held my breath to keep myself from crying the entire time I was at home. Randy came over though. He pissed me off for a bit and then of course as soon as he has to go we start to get along and I thought about sneaking away with him and going to live at his house. But my Mam would probably notice as soon as she needed me to do something for her. The night before school Roe Ran and Missy came over to hang out for a bit that was really fun. We went to Taco Bell so Randy could flirt with his love and I could eat, looked for a movie to rent with no success and hung out at home. I think this weekend I'm getting together with Missy to watch the first two seasons of the OC. That should be fun. I'll write back soon but for now I'm going to take a nap for a half hour before my Mammy gets home and starts barking out orders like I'm her damn slave.. kill me now My Dear Lord. Later, Maya
I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't enjoy being run over by a semi-truck. But something like that would be too close to a miracle to happen to someone like me. |
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| I Thought I Was Going To Get My Ass Handed To Me By BRTB |
[Aug. 28th, 2005|04:44 pm] |
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| |  Tomorrow Is Hell | ] |
Encase you don't remember BRTB is an abbreviation for Big Red The Bitch, which is the name Margaret my icky step mom should've had on her birth certificate. I kid you not there must've been some sort of mix up.
Anyway Sherbert, do I have a lot to tell you.
So I didn't update Friday or Saturday because I wouldn't have much to update about. But now... goodness a lot's happened. Friday was typical of a football night, afterward I hung at Brittany's for a little while and then the big white bus came around to pick me up. Inside was Ryan, Billy, Brent, and of course Randy meh little bitch. We swung by Roe's house to get the video camera from good ol' Scott Berquest, saw K.B. of course. Then we dropped off the crew at the Wagner residence. After that I went and got clothes from my Mammy's house, came back to my Dad's and Randy came in and watched A Bronx Tale with me. Which I must add is a classic. "Well you tell Joey Owens that sometimes in the heat of passion the little head tells the big head what to do." Then Saturday I woke up Randy took me to the mall to exchange a shirt and get a new one, and then we hung out at his house for a bit, and I came back to my Dad's in just enough time to change and get to work three minutes early. I don't even want to talk about work, I think it was the busiest day Antonio's has ever seen. After that I came home showered got my stuff ready and BTRB dropped me off at Taylor's. I had fun at Taylor's, Jay, Morgan, Randy, Roe, Billy, and Marty were all there. But long story short I woke up to a ringing telephone and Randy's mom yelling "RANDY COME TALK TO MAYA'S MOM SHE'S ON THE PHONE." and I still didn't get caught. For more information about this you'll have to call me or IM me. And by the way, never again, never again will I lie to my parents. I just got home a while ago from my cousin Griffin's 4th birthday party, and now I'm waiting to see if Melisa can get a ride over. Don't expect much of an entry tomorrow... school starts which means the end of happiness for Pea. And now I'm off, probably to watch Hercules.
Thanks For Reading,
Maya
I'm not use to hearing people refer to us as together, and I can't figure out if I like hearing it or not. I can't even figure out if that's what I'd call us... together. I haven't been together with another person since 7th grade. But I do know one thing. Sometimes, sometimes I love you. If you know me at all you'll know that sometimes is a big deal for me. |
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| I Really Like Your Peaches, Wanna Shake Your Tree |
[Aug. 26th, 2005|01:06 am] |
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| |  I think my spine is broken. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Polly - Nirvana | ] |
Let Me Take A Ride Cut Yourself
My Dear Sherbert,
So today I went to the end of the Frosh game and the entire JV fooseball game. I had a pretty nice time, and I saw some people I haven't seen in months. Everyone seemed to like my hair, which makes me feel a bit more comfortable about it. But I still look like a little boy, with a mullet/bowl cut.
I'm up on a tight wire One sides ice and one is fire It's a circus game with you and me
I'm looking forward to the game tomorrow. It should be fun regardless of the fact that we'll loose terribly. I'm still going to cheer like it's my job. Maybe throw in a few "YEAAAH, FOOOTBALL"'s lol. Emily Desrochers said that tonight, it was funny.
I know that you love me and soon you will see you were meant for me and I was meant for you
But it looks like I'll be going alone to the varsity game just like I went alone to the others. Ehh I don't care though I'm kind of a loner anyway. On a different note, I keep seeing Eli sign online. I hope he doesn't have me on his buddy list.
Encase you failed to notice Encase you failed to see this is my heart bleeding before you
Or if he does that he doesn't look at profiles and journals. He'd prolly do something stupid like send my Mammy the link and highlight everything I say that's remotely close to bad mouthing him. Or maybe he'd read it and consider how much of a jerk off he is.
This is me down on my knees and these foolish games are tearing me apart
I highly doubt my second scenario would ever happen though. That would be too close to a miracle to happen to me. I really miss Eli sometimes, at least the Eli he use to be. Back in middle school when him and I were attached at the hip, even though I was a dorky elementary kid. He changed so much.
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
At the end of his 8th grade year it was like he turned into a completely different person. I've even talked to my sister's boy friend Basil about it. He was telling me how obvious it is that Adam, Posey and I are all similar in many ways, and Eli stick's out like a sore thumb.
I've mistaken you for somebody else somebody who gave a damn somebody more like myself
He's just so cold hearted. I honestly think he believes that people who are different from him have a disease. But I can't help thinking about how things would be if we were close still. Life would have been a lot easier these past five years if I had someone to talk to.
Don't feel nothin' I just feel cold don't feel nothin' just old scars toughin in up around my heart
I mean other than an online journal that everyone is entitled to take a peek at. I swear to God the two times Eli and I have had deep conversations lasted two minutes. Both times he some how told me he thought I was mentally dis-functional, ugh what a dick.
Look at the stars look how the shine for you and everything you do
Different subject lately I feel like I'm in a pretty good place, which is different for a change. I'm getting close again with Lani, Jay, Sami, and never before Becky. I talked to Chelsea today for a while on the phone today too, which was nice. Plus Melisa and I are pretty close.
Afro Mutha Fucking M A N AEIOU & Sometimes Double-U
And Randy and I are together 24-7 but that goes without saying these days. But the other Wagner little Brent and I are getting close again, I miss the old days in 7th grade. Not to mention I miss Billy Hinterman a whole shit load. Him and I were best friends until the middle of last year.
The sight of you leaves me weak there are no words left to speak
But schools starting so maybe I'll see some of my friends I've grown apart from more often. School sucks though... makes me want to shoot myself in the foot. All honors again this year, dumb. I'm not motivated for that shit. I'm not even motivated enough to do all the work they have in regular classes.
Come what may I will love you until my dieing day
So I've basically rambled on for an hour now so I'll wrap it up. See everyone at the game, better cheer with me. Ready Go? right Tay. Thanks for reading kids, write me a few comments. Much Love Bert.
Maya IZZ
You just call out my name and you know where ever I am I'll come runnin' to see you again |
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| Atleast Out Loud I Won't Say I'm In Love |
[Aug. 25th, 2005|12:56 am] |
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| | Hercules - Quite Possibily The Coolest Movie Of All Time | ] |
Dear Sherbert,
I had a nice day today, I even saw a few people from school. I woke up around three, which I feel kind of guilty about. Melisa was awake by herself since 11:30, but she just read some of my library books until I finally willed myself out of bed. Then we watched half of Memento, until my Dad came and got us and took us shopping. I'd be lying if I said I was excited about this little shopping trip, but it went surprisingly well. My Dad never agrees to buying me even half of what I need, and this time he bought me everything I wanted, and told me he'd bring me out next week if I still needed anything. I have no clue what that's all about he's never been like that before. While I was at the mall I saw the Queens which was a delight, I really miss hanging out with them they're probably two of the coolest people I know. They've changed their looks a lot since school got out. They look a lot older now, and prettier. They were pretty before but in more of a cute way. But anyway enough about them lookin' good heh. I also saw Jessica Peterson which is always fun. Then my Dad took Missy and I to get a soda pop from some little ghetto store, and dropped us off back at the Brick. Then Randy and Rosanne came over and I drove us all around because Mammy had errands to do. We came back again to the Brick, hung for a bit, got some Burger King, then hung some more. They just left and now it's just Missy and me again. Well Hercules is over so I think I'll go read some more of Zig-Zag. Thanks for listening to me ramble Sherbert.
Love,
Cata-pilar
P.S. In my icon it looks like I don't have teeth, I do, that's just the braces. |
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| Where Troubles Melt Like Lemon Drops High Above The Chimney Top That's Where You'll Find Me |
[Aug. 24th, 2005|01:57 am] |
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| | Some Where Over The Rainbow - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole | ] |
Mister Sherbert,
I must admit today was a good day. I talked to Todd and to my surprise he has no problem giving me Friday's off. He was a lot nicer about it than everyone said he would be, but whatever. To start the day off I woke up at the butt crack of dawn and watched the rest of Sleepy Hollow with Melisa, and briefly helped pack the car for the big departure. I played nice for a bit and actually gave the bastard a hug good bye, holding my breath for every second of it. Mammy wasn't as angry about the entire thing, and there wasn't even enough room for me in the car anyway. After they left I watched another movie with Melisa called A Wedding Date, which was okay, kind of predictable but what isn't these days. Then I called Randy and he took me to go get my hair cut, we won't talk about that. Then we went back to his house to pick up Brent to take him to practice, went and paid Simba for a football t-shirt, approved of the design and came back home. Then Melisa and I read a little bit and took a nap. Around 6 my Dad came and got us and took us to his house and we made plans for the evening. When seven rolled around I came back to my brick house to find Mammy already here, going ballistic about me getting my hair did, and unreceived calls from Taylor and Randy. Eventually the big white bus was in my drive way and Missy and I piled in the car with Big Ran and Wyatt, swung by Mogan's to pick her and Tay Bay up and then we went to the drive-in. We saw Forty Year Old Virgin which was okay and part of the new Deuce movie which was a disaster. After a little while we all agreed leaving was in our best interest we dropped Mogan and Taylor off at home, picked up money from my house, and went to Archie's for some food. Now I'm home and full of food, and feeling a bit better about how my Friday's will be spent this year. Oh and for those of you who were curious, my icon's a picture of me in Lani's dryer, sept for I don't look like that anymore... at all. That's enough for now though.
Evening Herb,
Snoopy (according to Trishia I look like him now) |
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| What A Day |
[Aug. 23rd, 2005|02:28 am] |
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| | crushed | ] |
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For those of you who don't know, I've had a journal on a different website since 7th grade. But I've decided some of the contents of that one shouldn't be looked at anymore. I've also noticed I'm too lazy to write in my other journals, so typing in a new one is my only other option. And the other thing is I'd feel unnatural if I didn't name this journal Sherbert, like every other journal I've had since I was about five. So here it goes...
Dear Sherbert,
I've missed you more than you know. This last year would have gone by easier for me if I'd written more, I'm sure of it. Melisa is over right now, sleeping in the living room. She came over and we had big plans of renting a million movies and watching them tonight. But us, being the losers we are, realized as we were only 15 minutes into Sleepy Hollow, that we were done being awake. Anyway, I woke up a little bit ago because Eli was making a ruckus getting things ready for moving to MSU tomorrow, and now I can't fall back asleep. I knew this would help me clear my head. Today was a pretty big let down. I went into to work today for my first pay day and was annoyed to see I was only getting one weeks pay instead of two. Come to find out this weeks pay is for my first week of work, and next monday will be for last Friday and Saturday I worked. But whatever I think that's stupid. Now, I'm thinking I'm going to end up quitting anyway because if I don't I'll miss every varsity football game all year. Which isn't worth it to me. So I think I'm going to go in in the next few days and be like, "So Tod I found out that when school starts I'm not going to be able to get here until 5:15 or 5:30 on Friday's because I don't have a ride(I'm going to be baby sitting two mini Wagners every day after school) and I'll have to leave by 6:45 to get to dance class (not). If that's a problem it's alright if you won't be needing me to work here anymore." Basically my joy of having a job was all flushed down the toilet today. In other news, tomorrow could quite possibly be the happiest day of my life. ELI'S SKINNY ASS IS MOVING TO MSU. All of today my mother was trying to guilt trip me into going with them to help him get situated, but I already know how that would go. We'd drive there and I'd be pissed because I'd have to listen to him sing as loud as he can to all the ridiculous music he listens to and not have any means to listen to anything else. Head phones wouldn't even begin to muffle him when he bellows out what he thinks is a nice singing voice, ironically enough he's going to college for his so called vocal talents and going with several scholarships.. whatever he can suck my cock. And if I so much as tell him to try to quiet down he'd go nutzo and my mom would be there to defend his ass like I was dissing on Jesus. Then they'd gang up on me and Charles would laugh in my face. Then when we get to his dorm if I don't help they'll yell at me for being lazy but if I don't do things exactly the way Eli wants them done all hell will break loose. Either way I'm screwed. And then when we leave they'll be expecting me to give him a hug and shed a few tears, well fuck that I'm not pretending that I like him. I would just stand there secretly jumping for joy inside with a nasty smirk on my face waiting for the day to end. Then Mammy would get even more pissed at me, concluding in an uncomfortable ride home. I thought maybe I'd go and I'd bring Trishia but apparently there won't be room. I figure Eli already admit to secretly being in love with her and wanting to marry her maybe he'd be nicer to me if she's around, but that fell through. So now I've just decided I'll piss them all off by doing what I want to do on Eli's precious day, and skip out on the whole thing, and stay home and celebrate life without an ass hole creeping around my house. Then I was thinking about what Erica is going to do now that Eli will be gone, that kid is sadly her entire life. What a fucker, ugh she could quite possibly be the nicest person I've ever met, I don't understand how the hell she had to end up with a jerk like Eli. God must be getting a nice big knee smacking laugh out of this one or something. And here I am, I went to bed early for the first time all summer and I wake up a little while later with full energy and no way to get back to sleep. I think I'll go get something to drink and see if reading will make me fall back asleep, knowing me I'll end up reading an entire book. But whatever. Thanks for reading kids, I'm going back to bed.
Night Bert,
Maya |
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